Thursday, March 26, 2009

Giggling Coming from the Basement

Lewis has a friend over. A sweet girl from school. He hasn't had a girl here in a few months so it's nice to hear the cute, sweet, giggling going on down there. Lewis has a great sense of humor, and he's a creative, spontaneous young man. I can see why this friend is interested in spending time with him.

The basement door remains open...chocolate chip cookies have been made and delivered. It's a great night! :)

Sunday, March 8, 2009

A Mother's Prayer

My friend Dianne Bartel is celebrating her 70th birthday this month, March 2009. She showed great excitement at our last MOPS meeting about turning 70 saying with a cheer: she loves it! Usually women don't get real excited about turning a year older, but Dianne looks at birthdays a bit differently than most of us. You see exactly half her age ago, 35 years ago, Dianne lay in a bed with cancer, uncertain as to her future. She earnestly prayed for God to heal her to allow her the privilege of having another year, many more years if possible, to see her children grow, her grandchildren, and now her great-grandchildren. Thirty-five years ago, at the age of 35, Dianne didn't know her future, but she knew and trusted in an Almighty God.

Thirty-two years ago my mother also lay in a hospital bed at the age of 34 suffering from cancer as well. Her prognosis was not a positive one and she also prayed to the same great God that she would see her children grow, her grandchildren, and dare she pray, her great grandchildren. Two great women - one awful disease - one incredibly similar prayer to One Great God.

Dianne's prayer was answered in the way she prayed. My mother's prayer was not. My mother went to be with Jesus just a few short months later leaving behind three children aged 14, 12 (myself) and 8, not to mention a devastated diabetic husband.

I've thought a lot of this parallel over the past couple days. It proves just how much I don't know God, but how much I truly love Him. I'm not bitter. I'm not lost. Quite the opposite...my siblings and myself have all been carried by this Great God for many years and we're all married to awesome spouses with three kids each, and we all serve the Lord in His sanctuary! My mother's prayers for her children have been answered, she just isn't here to see it.

The choice is mine - to be bitter or to be better. As the Matt Redman song goes, "My heart will choose to say, Lord, Blessed be your name!"

Job 1:21: "The LORD gives, and the LORD takes away. Praise the name of the LORD."
Isaiah 5:8-9: "For My thoughts are not your thoughts, and your ways are not My ways." This is the LORD's declaration.
"For as heaven is higher than earth, so My ways are higher than your ways,
and My thoughts than your thoughts."

Monday, March 2, 2009

OK - How Weird is THAT!

I blogged the previous entry about dreaming of becoming an earth moving truck driver. An hour or more later, I'm tired and ready to go to bed, but I keep moving to the next blog of a friend of a cousin of a spouse, etc. etc. etc. I then read this:

"Hey leader, just give up. Throw in the towel, raise the white flag, just quit trying so hard... After all, is this really worth it?"

Read the entire entry for yourself here.

But he ends up saying this perfect, weird thing:

"...sometimes, we simply need a good meal and some sleep. Right thinking and perseverance... is it in your arsenal or is it a leadership lid? God has given us a vision and has put us where we're at with our current team. What thinking will we choose?"

Perfect timing. Thanks, God!!!

Dreaming of a New Job

I reported to work this morning, taught the preschoolers about Jesus healing a blind man, but 90 minutes later I was clocked out and on my way home. Today marked the 16th day in a row I was working without a day off. My body is tense; I've been verclempt (is that a word?) most of the day; my house is in disarray. I truly needed a day off - physically and mentally. So - when I got home I put on some soothing music, made some banana bread, cleaned up my bedroom (clothes were everywhere!), washed dozens of towels, then made the yummiest chicken noodle dinner (thanks Paula Dean!). Oh, I even had a 30 minute nap! I felt so much more normal after getting all these things accomplished, but nothing compares to what Lewis said when he came home from school: The house smells amazing! I can't wait for dinner! Ahhh. Normalcy again.

But I visited Target this afternoon on my way to pick up the other two boys from track practice and I saw this man in a large earth moving machine, just driving his big truck around some dirt heaps, crossing the street. Back and forth he goes. Two other men stop traffic on the road so the earth mover can keep moving. The tires alone on this earth mover are taller than myself, so it's a pretty large machine. I stopped there on the road watching this truck thinking: I could do that. The earth moving driver-man is in a warmed cabin, he's wearing grubbies, he probably didn't even shower before going to work, and he gets to sit and drive this large machine back and forth, back and forth all day long. Then when the day is done, he locks it up, turns in the key to the foreman, and goes home. He probably doesn't wake up during the night, like I do, thinking about classrooms, snacks, volunteers, schedules, overcrowding, overdue movies, did I say enough, did I say too much, and how to make a better program for my early childhood kids - because remember: Sunday's Coming!

So... Today I dreamed of a having new job - being a earth moving truck driver. Regular hours. Days off when the weather is bad. No concerns for what clothes to wear, or what practical but stylish shoes to run around in. Finsh one job, move on to the other. No real commitments. No close relationships.

But that's not what Jesus did. Jesus lost sleep. Jesus had a heart for people. Jesus woke up early in the dark hours of the morning to pray for those around him. Jesus had the hardest job in the world to do, and he did it perfectly. The only reason I was able to go to work today and teach the Bible to so many beautiful preschoolers is because Jesus did it first. He has set the example and as long as I continue to do what He calls me to do, He'll equip me to get it all done.

But I can still dream of being an earth moving truck driver.